~personal information/rant below~~you've been warned
In other news, I have a doctor appointment today to hopefully start us on the path to our family. It's been almost a year since we started trying, and although we were able to get pregnant but couldn't get him/her to stick, something is not right if it's taking us this long, especially since I'm charting and know when I'm ovulating. It almost seems silly--all those years of using birth control. What a waste. You always hear about infertile people, but you never align yourself with them. Never think for a minute that you could be included in that group. It's hard when you finally come to terms with the fact that you *could* be in that group. It's terrifying. I've wanted two things out of my life ever since I could remember. To be a teacher, and to be a mother. Currently, I'm neither. Teaching jobs are next to impossible to find up here, especially if you didn't go to a Michigan college, so I took a job out of my field--an entry-level crappy job, taking comfort in the fact that one day soon, I would quit anyway, and become the full-time mom I've wanted to be when my kids were young. Ha. Kind of funny that now we're having issues in that department. Not really funny though. Sometimes I feel as though my life is running away without me.